Initiation

We finally put down the first "portion" of the lawyer fees and we are moving as far forward as we can at this point. We were informed that the 30 day window of "appeal" does not indeed begin until the CPS submits their paperwork to the adoptions unit. My caseworker told me she would be getting that in next month. Hmmmm I don't know how the Foster/adopt agency is so hopeful that we will have him adopted by the end of the year... I am not seeing the possibility of that; BUT I do know that we serve a GREATER GOD full of miracles and Blessings! I am trusting Him with everything to turn out the way HE indeed planned! He has had plans for Bear and us from day one and we are unable to change not even a day! We can alter it by way of our choices but I feel that the day is still going to ultimately turn out the way it was willed. If you made a bad call then you will suffer consequences but the outcome will still overall be the same. (That's my view anyway...)... Is that clear as mud??? So anyway all that to say. I am praying and hopeful that God is bigger than this and is taking care of us even in the "waiting room" of adoption! He knew the plans for us from the very beginning and I will submit my heart to him as not to get in the way with my radical behavior Ü!

Peace and Blessings be with you all tonight!

Update on the court hearing...

So I went back after dropping Bear and J off; it is like 5 minutes away. I found the CPS caseworker and slipped in the seat behind her and let her know I was back minus the gold mine and my hubby. She informed me that everything was already over. WHAT!!!! she had told me that it was going to be a while before we were on the stand and that we would probably be one of the last ones seen. UGHGGGGHHHH! Okay that is just frustrating. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT SHE LOOKS LIKE FOR PETE'S SAKE! I know we can request a picture for Bear's scrapbook but she totally does not have to comply with that. I want to know was she crying, was there remorse in her face, did she have any hesitations. Was her heart breaking???? Oh how my heart hurts for her. On his b.day we prayed for her... I cried as I thought of her knowing that she gave birth to him a year ago that day! You know she has to have real vivid memories. Even though it turned out different it doesn't mean that she doesn't have feelings. I have lots of hope for her and I pray for her heart to be captivated by our TRUE FATHER! Please if you remember her pray for her heart to be mended and at peace with where her son is. THank you!

Overall this is what happened (in my absence) in court. The bio mother relinquished her rights and signed a relinquishment in front of the court. We will now be moved to the adoptions unit where we will proceed with adopting. There now starts a 30 day window (Appeal period) for family or anyone to come forward to "claim" him if they so choose. After that 30 days is up then we get to move forward with our own desire to adopt him. We are unsure as to how this works but we have been told that we could have him adopted before Christmas... who knows really. NO body but God knows the plans of this little treasured man.

Please be praying with us that we will have utmost peace and patience in this time to come. It is not easy going through this basically blind folded due to not always being informed of everything going on in the case. I hate that he is a case. I am ready for him to JUST BE OUR SON... no longer a case! Thank you for all the prayers and support. We love and appreciate you all!

****UPDATE ON MOE****
I was informed today that he was seen by our CPS caseworker at their office and she said he looks like he is doing okay... but she said that they cut his hair... awwwwww my little moe isn't moe no mo! I am glad to hear that he seems to be doing okay though. I am going to email another caseworker that was on his case and see if I can't get anymore information about how he is doing. Thanks for the prayers for him also.

Final Hearing... Please Pray

Today we have a final hearing for Bear. We just left the courthouse because we had him there (for lack of childcare) and we were informed that the mother is going to be brought from well from "enclosures" and she will be there to sign legal documents terminating her rights. OH my goodness my stomach is in knots. I brought J back to the rent's house with Bear so I can go back and be there for this moment. And I am dying to know what she looks like. Please be praying for peace and comfort in this time of "turmoil" in my heart. If you don't know by now I HAVE ANXIETY ISSUES.... I get real nervous in big settings and I feel like I am going to faint and vomit. Okay I have to go now but please pray!!!!! More to come.....