Today

Okay so for those of you who follow me on Facebook you knew I had court this morning. Originally I went for Roo BUT it "just so happens" that Moe's case was reviewed before the court today also.

I have had some insight on what has been happening in his case and it has NOT been good! I knew that. I knew CPS has not been happy with his current conditions. I knew that they were wanting him to come back to us. I did. I just didn't know that it would happen today!

First of all Roo's case was very short and the mother is wanting to work plans to get him back... they usually always start out that way. She was all alone, no attorney, no friend, no hand to hold. Just her. It broke my heart. I looked at her at such a young age and thought that so could have been me back at that age. ALONE, Lost! I cried. (Ol' soft heart syndrome!). She just needs someone to take her by the hand and tell her she is loved, she has value and that she has a savior crying out for her heart! JESUS, captivate her heart! There are no visitations in play so I am unsure of what that means.

Then came Moe's case! Boy Howdy that was a different story all together! It lasted about 3 hours of back and forth this and that... UGH. EXCRUCIATING! Especially having to listen to them explain the things that Moe has been through since he left our home and how he has regressed so much.

When they were talking about him no longer talking I didn't think they were 100% truthful. And when they said he was distant and depressed I was like hmmm, maybe he is just being his bashful self.

Not in the least.

Today Moe was returned to our home.

He cannot talk. He looks straight through you... he's lost in his own little world.

I cry.

Where is my happy little Moe Baby and why is there no way I can save him from this corrupt system.

CPS wants him to be adopted by us but the judge may not see that necessary if the mom can now step it up and make a way for him.

I hate that he has to be put through so much at such a young age. YES children are resilient but they are also VERY FRAGILE... Handle with care!

This has been some of the most careless acts imposed upon his little self. I was for the dad having a chance to prove himself a fit father but when it started going downhill they should have stopped it then. NOT 4 months later!

We welcomed him back into our home and saw Bear interact with his little self. Moe was being stand off-ish and then Bear came right up to him on my lap and started laughing this ridiculous little goofy laugh and Moe cracked up laughing and they sat there for 5 minutes laughing at eachother... an overwhelming JOYFUL laugh... at NOTHING. The pure innocence of childhood that he should ALWAYS know in our home.

Tonight I sat with him, prayed with him and just held him. He was tough. He put up a fight. He then surrendered and smiled at me and dropped one part of that wall.

Our Moe Baby has been returned as a damaged package but with lots of delicate placement and all the right pieces we can get him back. I love him no matter how he comes. It will be some hard work but to see him being well taken care of ... I will take that hard work over none.

ANY DAY!