Beware... venting in progress....

I am in a blah state of being right now. I feel like the enemy is really working on me for destruction. I have been worn real thin in the nerve department and it seems that everyone and everything is dancing all over the thin areas. I am sure it is just because they are already fraying that it feels any different now. I can't seem to function or focus on anything and it seems that somewhere a schedule I once had doesn't exist anymore. I mean I keep our kids on their schedule and all but for some reason it seems that I don't have me time anymore and I am losing my mind trying to keep up with all the demands running around here. AND THEN THE PHONE RINGS, AND RINGS, AND RINGS. If you've ever been one that calls me you hear the same thing every time you call... the out of breathness because I had to stop something to sprint across the house to find our phone and then the frustration because I am too busy for my own self. ON TOP OF the fact that I now have a 10 mo old that is being real clingy and is teething so he is cranky A LOT (i love him but WOW). HELP! AND I can't find my car keys. I think it is because my husband is home that my schedule has become so hectic; it's like having a third kid hanging on you for the day following you around, except at night around 6 he goes to work and then I can finally relax. Once Johnny starts a regular schedule with teaching I am really hoping that will help our marriage level out and me stop being so frustrated with him being around me all the time and then never seeing him; back and forth for college classes and semesters. So after 6P I get the kiddos bathed and read to, prayed over and then down for the night. I then dive into one of the many projects on my plate and don't have a single bit of enthusiasm to want to do any of it but know that I have to get it done. UGGHHHH! Anyone ever feel that way? Any pointers on how to get out of this funk and grab hold of the Father's garment and climb out of the pit???? I need some up lift in the spiritual dept. BAD!!! And some pointers on how to deal with a husband that doesn't seem to read into THE WRITING ON THE WALL and just hear me when I say I need to be left alone to think without a constant sound going on. I know that he is just wanting to be with me and spend time with me but what he doesn't see is that I don't have a single moment all day without someone NEEDING ME! I love taking care of my boys but c'mon my husband should not follow me around in a daze not knowing what he should be doing. I feel like I have to think for everyone. So by the end of the day I feel like I am spending the time reeling my arms and legs back in from being pulled in 20 different directions for the day. By the time I finally unwind (about midnight) my husband comes back home. I am thankful he does at least come back home. Ü

Okay I am through venting. I just needed to get that out in the open air to be able to breathe. I feel like I need to just have a day to sleep all day and not have a single thing to worry about. I would like time to stand still for a whole day; like a time warp zone that we wives, mothers, daughters, friends, sisters, Aunts can climb into when life is too overwhelming for the moment and just escape for as long as we want and time stands still on the other side. That would be great! Thanks for listening...reading....

next step... new tooth!

Moe has a tooth; and at 5 mos old too. He never complained not one time. There was a season of life for him in the beginning that was rough anyway so that could have been the start of his teeting but that was a while back. He is doing great and loving life with the Wachsmanns. We love him and will always call him son.
I took their monthly pictures today. Moe's 5 mo and Bears 10 mo. They are way too cute for words. I hope I have done an adequate job (having to edit them) showing off their handsome charm.

Marriage Retreat

This weekend Johnny and I went to a marriage retreat for foster parents. It was out of town and the whole weekend. We left the boys with Johnny's parents (the rents as you will hear them referred to) to be taken care of. They enjoy their time with them (both ways; they's and them's). The rents always get a good laugh at the new things Bear and Moe are able to do. What new skills have they learned. Moe hasn't learned many except that he is starting to laugh a lot more and squeal with delight more now. He is "talking" to his animals more and to Bear more smiles are delivered; no matter how many times he gets crawled over. He loves him.

Oh yeah; so, the marriage retreat. The one thing that is hot on my mind is that when you call a "time-out" (for a heated argument) you have to call "time-back-in". Most times when we are in a "discussion" that becomes heated and full of frustration then we need to (just as children) take a time-out to calm down, recollect and gain composure. But more times than not the disagreement never gets resolved due to the fact that nobody ever calls time-back-in. That allows us, once we have calmed down and had time to think, to come to the table with a clear mind frame and a better way of looking at the issue at hand. We can then discuss RATIONALLY the things that need a solution. We then need to do a speaker/listener technique we learned as well so that no one is unheard or unvalidated. Then we brainstorm over the best possible solution and come to a conclusion by weeding out the suggestions that are not going to work for both our needs. We learned a lot and had a wonderful weekend alone together. The time was well spent and very much appreciated.
I felt so pampered it was unreal. We returned to our room the first night and found a red rose and a bucket of gourmet chocolates in our room. The second night we returned to our room to find rose petals on the floor along with a candle on the bedside table. (I think the petals would have been on the bed had it been made.) Johnny and I took a nap earlier that afternoon and so the bed was not made... oops.. hahahaha. OH AND YES I TOOK A NAP FOR ALL OF YOU PAYING ATTENTION. And for those of you who don't really know me that well. I HATE naps. I go to bed late and get up bright and early and cannot sleep throughout the day. I have never been able to understand why people love them so much (secretly I kind of wish I knew how to relax more so I could learn what they are more frequently) . We won't get into that discussion though. Nother time Nother story.
Blessings to you all. If you have any questions about the marriage retreat feel free to ask. I have all kinds of material that got brought home with us as well as books. I will do my best to answer your questions.