Bear's Adoption tree(s)

My friend Mandy bought Bear a tree to commemorate his adoption. She waited for this particular one to be in season so it has taken until now to get it. I am glad she did.

We are now the proud parents of not only a handsome little boy but a Bald Cypress tree to boot! I absolutely LOVE it.



And there's a bonus, a Texas Red Bud tree! When she ordered the Bald Cypress, the company also "threw in" a Texas Red Bud.



She was just going to keep that one but they were camping out in the same bag so she gave us both! How sweet! Thank you so much Mandy!

My aunt came over today and planted them finally. I have been wanting to but my ankle wasn't allowing for anything like that. SO I called and humbled myself to get some poor trees planted in the ground! I sure hope they withstand the FREEZING COLD that is coming.

My aunt says they should be fine. I PRAY they will!

Bear's Blessings

Tristan has now gotten to the point where he blesses our/his food before we eat.

It sounds something like this..

"Jesus, thank you (for) food. Bless it, mershing (nourishing), Amen".

I have been VERY UNSUCCESSFUL uploading videos to blogger but they upload to facebook just fine. So here is the link to my facebook page to view him in action.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1306155782531&saved

If you are not a "friend or network" it is set to private so just request my friendship :).

We have also been teaching him scripture. He has learned "I am a Mighty Man of GOD" and right now he is working on "I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me". He is doing great. We want him to have the word of GOD tucked deep in his heart.

It has already been a blessing to hear him when he is in his room going to sleep singing Jesus LOVES Me. He will also say a prayer as he is in bed. I will hear him through the door, "Jesus, thank you food. Bless it, mershing. Amen".

It makes my heart happy that he knows to pray and he gets the idea of it. But as of now that is the consistent prayer that he knows. We pray throughout the day but they are all "new" prayers and from the heart... not consistent wordage. But he gets that we pray throughout the day. Even when we are driving down the road (when I do a lot of my praying) he will pray his food blessing from his car seat.

Oh LORD help us to raise a fisher of men. A man on fire for you that will keep YOUR WORD burning in his heart for all the days to come. When trials come he will KNOW that you will bring him through. YOU will sustain him. JUST as you have sustained us in this family through it all! -AMEN

You know...those dreams

The ones where everything seems so real and you wake up looking for all that just happened to be staring you in the face.

Yeah that kind.

I had one last night and in this dream I had given birth to a baby. And it lived. I was getting to take it home and everything. My very own.

This morning I woke up and let's just say I am very heartbroken today. Depression is looming and I am fighting back tears. I am losing. I feel like such a failure...

Why do they have to be SO REAL. So real you can taste it, hold it, breathe it, take it home...

What is the purpose for dreams such as these. The devil is close by like a prowler lurking in the dark. He knows where I have been hit hardest and here he comes in my weakness to get that one final blow in that will bring me to my knees.

His prey, he has caught me.

OH LORD DELIVER ME FROM THE GRIPS OF THE ENEMY. DELIVER ME FROM THE PIT OF BROKENNESS AND DESPAIR. I fight back tears but they overtake me. I feel so defeated I just want to lay down and become dust yet again. I feel there is nothing left in me. I feel like I have given EVERYTHING and still I am being chased down again and again for another kill.

Wouldn't you think the enemy would get tired of chasing after someone so DEAD.

Then again maybe he is just waiting for the victory.

I will fight with a supernatural strength. Because when I can no longer stand up I will CRY OUT and HE, MY GOD, WILL hear my cries and HE will come in and FIGHT on MY behalf. HE will be the VICTORIOUS ONE!

And I, I will fall to my knees, humbled, broken and totally in awe of the ONE who LOVES me without fail. Even when I am weak and devoured. He will love me in this place.