Moes life with us...

Moe 2 mos old
Moe 3 mos old
Moe 4 mos old
He has been claimed as Bear territory


We still have no updates on Moe. We were told that we would be saying goodbye soon maybe a little over a week ago and we still have heard nothing. I pray sometimes that they would just realize he is better off here and that it would be psychotic to remove him from security, stability and the only home he truly knows. It is painful to me that I don't know what is going on. He just celebrated his 5 month b.day and on the 16th will mark his 4th mo with us. I mean c'mon this is hard enough not knowing, but knowing and not knowing when, is even harder. I asked my CPS caseworker to not only give me an hour notice of his removal but to call me in a week advance to get my heart as prepared as possible. I have to call upon God for this unknown strength because as Moe's mommy I am unable to hold myself together and function normally. I pray that God would have favor on our family and make it increased by one more (two total including Bear). But mostly and unselfishly I have to pray that Moe would be placed in the home God has called him to. Uggghhhhh that hurts and stinks. We love our Moe baby.

Birthday Bash(ed)

okay so the stars failed us. We had a little bit of a show but nothing spectacular due to the GINORMOUS, BRIGHT MOON. We saw the ones that on a normal dark night would have been Brilliant but for last night they were only a little streak sputtering across the night sky. Oh well. I was surrounded by the ones I love most and then some. I think that is really the only thing that matters. I love seeing the stars and relaxing under the shower of the Perseid but it comes every year for us all to enjoy.

So now that I am 30... Well truthfully it feels no different then when I was 25... My responsibilities have all changed as have my priorities but my heart is still restless and looking for adventure constantly... I am just not sure my "SHAPELY, Really shapely" body can handle it Ü. I have a lot of fun, crazy ideas that I don't imagine will ever come to life but at least I thought of them. Doesn't that like mean my brain is at least still young. Yes that does count. I have convinced myself and that is all that matters.

Thanks to all of you who were here to celebrate my birthday and hang in there with us until the "show" began and tried to impress us. You are dear to my heart and I hope next year you will be able to join us again for hopefully a more memorable night.

TURNING 30!! AAAHHHHHHHH

Okay I think it has finally hit me.... I am turning 30. NO; REALLY! Quit laughing.... I am not kidding. Yes this is for real. I am no longer in the 20 something range..... I am now over the hill and speeding at an uncontrollable rate gaining speed as I continue on. Hahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahhahahahahahaha. Help hysteria has set in... I can't see straight. Wait; who turned out the lights, oh wait maybe it is cataracts settling into my eyeballs.

Okay I am joking... I am going to face 30 like a big girl! ***flump, sigh*** and no I am not pouting. There are plenty of things I thought I wanted to be before I was 30 but I don't think I have mastered any but maybe one. I will choose however to look on the bright side and look at the things that I have accomplished and know that God definitely has different plans for me than I do.

1) I am married
2) I am a mommy
3) I am a friend to many (even old neighbors still love me and call me friend Ü)
4) We are buying a home
5) We are healthy and alive
6) I drive a toyota camry & a JEEP WRANGLER
7) I am trusted
8) I have been told I have talent (many different ones in fact Ü)
9) I have 2 dogs that LOVE me
10) I have a relationship with the LORD whom I LOVE.

Can you take a moment and count your blessings. Reflect on the fact that God has bigger plans than the ones you set for yourself. He knows where you are going and if it were up to you to lead you somewhere you'd get lost. He is in control. Thank HIM that you don't personally have to handle you... I know I am grateful! I'd lose it. I can be a MULE.... hahahaha