Joshua Bears

We sat the boys down the day I came home from the hospital and shared with them the loss we all endured. I can't tell you how hard that was but I can tell you that there was a LOT of heart wrenching sobbing. 

We showed them the box that they gave us for Joshua's blanket, hat and diaper they had on him. There was also a plush lamb that they gave us to hold when we need him near. Ben snatched the lamb up and just held tight and sobbed! 

At that point we thought if they all have their own "Joshua bear" they can hold it tight when they are hurting as they grieve this season. 

So tonight we took the boys to get them their own "Joshua" bears at Build A Bear. 

As they were "bringing the hearts to life" with a wish the lady asked them did you make a wish they all three said, in unison, we just want our baby brother to come back. 

The lady just sat there for a minute before carrying on with stitching the hearts in the bears. 

I, however, was a mess. We
Will get through this. One day at a time, together. 

We are going to take them back soon to get a recording of Joshua's heartbeat put inside their Bears.