6 years and counting

Yesterday, April 10th, J and I celebrated our 6th year wedding anniversary.

I cannot begin to express how much it feels like SO MUCH LONGER than a mere 6 years.

In these 6 years we have experienced so much heartache we could do nothing more than hold eachother and cry. We have experienced so much joy we thought our hearts would burst. We have watched our ashes turn to beauty time and time again. We have seen the hand of God move in our lives all over. He looks out for especially us!

We are in a place right now that God has us in the palm of HIS hands. I am okay with this. This may look a little different for some people but for us right now it is J in a (small) waiting season for work and us spending LOTS of quality time together. (J goes to Ft. Worth on Tuesday to hear his case against him with UPS. He feels very strongly that he will get his job back, until then we will be persistent in seeking God and HIS will for our waiting season. We will follow HIS lead. We have gone our own way before and let me just say. It was NOT easy NOR was it fun!

It is not ideal that J is without a job, but we do trust and feel that God is completely in control and leading us just how HE planned. He will provide.

I cannot tell you how happy the boys have been lately to have their daddy around so much more. I, too, have been so blessed by his being here. We have sat and cried just being in the presence of the Lord, holding eachother knowing that HE has pulled us through EVERYTHING HE has brought us to. Even when we didn't have the strength to stand, we saw God holding us up to strengthen one another.

I know God never makes mistakes. I know our journey has been one full of trials and trying circumstances because HE is building up our faith for something BIG! And by big I mean BIIIGG! I don't claim to know what it is... but I do know that God doesn't call the qualified, HE qualifies the called! If this is HIM qualifying us, let me just say... we are going to be called for something greater than I could ever imagine.

As for the kids. I have been told that the last thing they want to do is remove our children. I know our agency advocates for their families and I wanted so badly to believe that our kids were safe, I do. It is scary all the same, but I have faith that our children are with us for a reason and I don't believe that J losing his job because of some plant manager having issues is going to mess up God's plans for our lives NOR theirs.

He has built up our Faith. In a MERE 6 years, we have been walking in the presence of the LORD and we KNOW HE will bring us through this too!

Happy Anniversary Honey! I love you and all that we have journeyed together! I am not saying that every day is WONDERFUL, but I am saying that I would not be okay doing this life with anyone less than yourself! You mean THAT much to me!

**Thank you to everyone who has been lifting us up in prayer. We could not ask for more and we sincerely appreciate all the kind words and generous acts toward our family! **