Update

Hello from the pit of sickness! Thank you Holly for filling in for me and updating on our puny family. You are precious!

We have all been kind of just bobbing around in the rough sea lately, or so it feels. We are battling a sickness that won't really show it's face to knock it out or even show a sign of when it is leaving making it REALLY hard to be optimistic about us all being well again!

I know that "this too shall pass" and I TRULY believe that. I am just having trouble seeing past the HUGE obstacles to allow the passing! Maybe it's the fogginess of my brain as I can barely function.

I feel so awful and even worse that I cannot do for my children the way they need me right now. I have been faking it and slaving away still at all the mother/wife duties in our household that need tending. But the faking has caught up with me. There is no more faking when it just runs out of your nose and you can't just keep "sucking it up"! It is time to face facts... I AM SICK! I HATE that I am sick. I am supposed to take care of the sick, right? RIGHT!

Anywho, I took Roo up to the ER last night because he was not breathing right. He has been sneezing and coughing a little but yesterday progressively it was getting worse. He was no longer able to "cough it up" and/or breathe past the blockage. He was gasping for air and that is a sight I wish I never knew. I Cannot stand watching a baby not being able to breathe. Then he started running a fever and his cries were getting faint. I told J... "I will not be able to rest with him acting like this", so I took him to the ER.

And there I sat with a gasping infant for over an HOUR. He was working super hard to breathe and his chest was caving in due to the struggle. GREAT SERVICE! His heart rate was and still remains in the 180-220's. Not good. We finally got a room to stay at 3 this morning. I finally fell asleep by 5A and then woke again at 8. I have been running on... well, prayer. Thank YOU! I feel that the boys are "enduring well" too due to all the prayers on our behalf. Again, Thank you!

Roo has been "breathing too fast" to feed. They have him on an IV drip of fluids. He has been doing great as far as sleeping through the "trauma" that he has to endure when they have to suction his nose and run tubes in the back of his nasal cavities to break up the "stuff", give him breathing treatments and an oxygen cannula in his nose. I take him from his bed with all his wires and just snuggle him in my arms on the reclining chair, resting as much as humanly possible with a precious babe sleeping in your lap.

So far J and I are taking turns caring for the others at home. He has forfeited driving for UPS for the time it takes for Roo to come home therefore he will be working at night, going in at 6 for appx 4 hours a night.

I will come home at about 4:30 to help get kids cleaned up and dinner served (We have lots of precious friends that have stepped in to help again by providing meals, and it is SUCH A BLESSING as we feel we are steadily sinking trying to stay focused on who needs what now... AND KEEPING IT ALL LOGGED FOR FOSTERING!).

In the time I am home with my boys I will bathe them and put them to bed, take myself a shower and then rest until J comes home to relieve me so that I can go back up to be with Roo. Tonight I came home to be with the guys, leaving Roo in the care of the hospital NICU staff. It felt so good to come home and see their faces light up and call out to me climbing into my lap for loving on. Oh how I cannot wait for them to be better! ALL OF THEM!

While we have had LOTS of offers to come watch the boys OR sit with Roo, we are not able to accept those kind offers due to the fact that Roo is highly contagious and the boys seem to NOT be getting any better... EVEN on the amoxicilin. I couldn't chance others getting sick trying to help us out. BUT THANK YOU ALL THE SAME! We love you and covet your prayers. REALLY! We could SO not do this without you!