Our Moe Baby!

We cannot count the number of times that we have been asked if our boys are twins. We cannot count the number of times that we have been asked if they are brothers. We cannot count the number of times that we have been asked if we are going to "keep" Moe. We cannot count the number of diapers we have changed. We cannot count the number of times We have clipped/cut his hair, toe nails and fingernails. We cannot tell you how many boo boos we have kissed on his sweet skin. We cannot tell you how many "mooow"'s we hear for more of something. How many, kisses we have received, how many giggles we have heard, how many snuggles we have taken advantage of. We cannot tell you because a parent's love just is. It does not keep count.



We do know that they act like brothers. We do know that they wake up in the same room and hold conversations only they understand early in the morning. We do know that they get along like brothers...the infamous love/hate relationship. We do know that they SHARE EVERYTHING like brothers. We do know that deep in their hearts they hold a very special bond that will never sever no matter the distance.




Would we KEEP him. NO DOUBT WE WOULD!


Can we keep him... no.

His father is very involved in his life and loves this little boy like none other. Moe holds our hearts in the palm of his hands and we would do what it takes to see him receive the best that he deserves. Every child deserves to be with their biological parent IF they prove true to their duty as a parent!

This father has!

He has bent over backwards and still continues to work hard to get his son back although his case plan is finished (technically). We have built a fairly strong relationship with his father and we trust that he is going to do what is right for Moe baby! We will keep contact with him and if he needs help he has been told to call... no reservations! He says he will and I believe him! I know there is a huge possibility that we will still get to see him on several occasions!



Is it easy... NOT A CHANCE!

I cannot tell you how many times I have gone to box up some of his things because the time is drawing near for him to leave but cannot bring myself to do it (even if I did Bear and Moe would unpack it in no time flat anyway! I think they want him to stay also!). By August he should be completely 100% out of our home and into the father's home. We are possibly going to start transitioning this week. We will see what happens.

Oh my heart aches. I have, in my heart, been trying to distance myself from my little Moe baby. I cannot tell you how bad it hurts to leave him home when he is crying to "goooo" too. I just can't think about it while I still have two boys to take care of all day. I will break and they still need me to be strong in this time.



Can I contain it all day. NOPE!

When they go down I cry. I have a moment where I just think of what is said to come and let it overwhelm me and I cry. I cry for the unknown, I cry for the time that I will no longer get to hold our little cheeky monkey and cuddle him before he sleeps. I cry for the time that I will no longer get to tickle his spots and hear his laughter at any given time of the day! I cry.

But then I thank the Lord that we have had the time to love on this little boy for the time that we have. I thank Jesus that He chose us to have such a sweet meaningful relationship with this family that otherwise we would have never known! Hopefully some day that relationship will turn to salvation and lots of it! I pray everyday that Moe will bring many to know the Lord and Savior. Even though that means we say goodbye we have to pray and have faith that what we have done in our short amount of time has given him wings to fly!

Turn my mourning into dancing Lord!