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How you can be praying.Fluid has been leaking a lot. Still no other symptoms, praise The Lord!!!Three boys have been coughing with watery eyes and runny noses. No fevers but I am terrified of getting sick! Ben came home and tells me his whole class is sick and someone threw up on the bus!!! I seriously just want to keep them home so they do NOT catch something and bring it home! I do not need them sick!!! I am losing steam and feeling like I am failing this. His heartbeat is still strong but how on earth can I keep losing fluids!?!? I just feel like the walls are stacking up against me and I am suffocating trying to stay positive. Good news... Tomorrow is two weeks down! 6 to go!!!!
Sorry for the delay in posting. It's been pretty quiet around here. Which is AWESOME!!
I had another dream last night that I felt was pretty prophetic. I have many prophetic dreams and visions I believe that have come to pass and one day I will sit down and share the ones about this pregnancy and previous pregnancies. I am always blown away when I have them and completely in awe of the way God uses dreams as well to speak to me.
Last nights dream was that I was having some bad pains and I went into the hospital where they were prepping me for delivery but I was still extremely early so I was terrified and telling them they were wrong, that the baby wasn't coming. It wasn't that kind of pain. They were ignoring me and continuing on. Then a more experienced charge nurse comes in and looks at the young nurse and says, very authoritatively, "she's not delivering, she still has a few months to go!" And the other nurse leaves me alone and walks out of the room!
I felt extreme peace and knew that I was going to be fine for the rest of my waiting. That no matter what "issues" I have, they will not cost my baby's life!
Saturday:
...I have been having a cry fest this morning and just curling up in the lap of our Father with some serious concerns. I HAD TO take a shower and as I'm in the shower this song popped in my head and I had an overwhelming desire to belt it out (and y'all, that took guts... I don't sing). But as I did all of my heartache that I had been wailing over for the past two days flowed down the drain with uncontrollable sobs.
"It's all about you, Jesus. And all this is for you for your glory and your fame. It's not about me; as if You should do things my way. You alone are God and I surrender... to your ways."
Maybe I am leaking a LOT more fluid. Maybe my heart is weary with uncertainty but who am I to say it HAS to look this way or that? Who am I to question what God is doing in and through my body? I am human, that's who. And I have to DAILY surrender to HIS ways... NOT my own.
....Ben is so intrigued and excited about his little brother it's not even explainable! We were listening to his heartbeat and Ben started trying to talk to Joshua through the speaker of the Doppler!!! Haha THEN he proceeds to look in my belly button with the light trying to see him!!! I was told he could see his hair in my belly button!
Sunday:
....For the past two nights two different children in our home have had dreams of a fire in our house!
Come Holy Spirit, like a blazing fire and bring the word of The Lord to consume us all! We need you Jesus!!! Abba Father! Immanuel! Jehovah Rapha: God who heals! Jehovah Shammah: my God is here!
....I mean if I have to be on bed rest for so long... I am at least very thankful for the view I get each day. Blue sparkling water, green grass and lots of horses that pass by! And earlier I was watching a little finch on the tree branches doing flips then a pair of cardinals sitting enjoying the sunshine.
....This has been my favorite song for as long as it's been on the radio. When I hear it, it speaks so loudly... Even more so now! http://youtu.be/dy9nwe9_xzw
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