Brotherly Love

I wasn't kidding when I told you that they hold hands. I love my boys! So precious indeed. Excuse the shot. I don't know why it wouldn't lighten up even with the flash on. Stinkin' non-SLR camera... has a mind of it's own! Oh well it is still priceless none-the-less (I am bias I think)... *smile*

small Stack

In lieu of small stack!



she wasn't joking about it being bigger. I just never imagined it could be this big! We started reading it last night & didn't even make a dent in it!
I would have never believed the truths written within these pages had I not read them for myself! Makes my heart ache for Bear's mother, truly. I know now better how to pray for her and her family.

I cannot fathom our son living within the pages of that life sitting there on our table typed all out onto paper. So many "what-if's" linger in the air filled with breathtaking astonishment. What If our son had truly been sent home to live within that family? What if the mother was given one more chance to change the outcome of her new born baby? Would she opt for a better life, or stay in what she knows best? What if Bear never came here to live with us, where would he be today. What if the alleged father passed the DNA and really was proven to be Bear's dad. Would he have taken him and cared for him as he said he would have?

All these are questions that we will never know the answer to this side of heaven. One day we will see the tapestry of our lives woven together to reveal such a beautiful story! It is never what we dream it will be, but in the end it is probably much bigger than you would or could have ever planned for yourself. God is Good like that! He gives us much more than we ask for. There are storms around every corner but there is a rainbow right behind it... reminding us of HIS promises and His Glory! We say YES and AMEN! Thank you Jesus for the gift of life and giving us the promise of a family. Thank you Lord that you have delivered our Bear from the lions den and let him walk out without a scratch on him. (More to be revealed on that fun little quote later). He was handed over to be eaten by sin and you chose a different path for him. You chose a different path for us as well. We knew you were calling us to raise up a family of strong believers that would take over nations... but we didn't see how that was going to happen after the loss of our 3rd child. I say to you, We see! ~amen

I am so excited to see what our future holds for Bear, Moe, and little ol' us! It is going to be great. It is all part of our design! And it is no longer part of a sinful cycle.

set back

There I was counting down the seconds for the Adoptions worker to get here with the case file for me to read. I get a call at 9:45 stating that she had been in a fender bender and would not be able to bring the file out but that her secretary would bring it around 4PM! Just to clarify she is okay and I was concerned that she was in a wreck. on the other hand (you know since she's okay and all, if not that would be way inconsiderate but....) Ugghhhh more waiting. Instead, I told her I would be there at 4 for a visit with Moe's father this afternoon. I would pick it up then.

Hmmmm what's up with this case file? Is there something in it I am being guarded from? I will be in prayer throughout the day!

So for now I am rearranging my home for the 115th time since we moved in October of 07. I just rearranged the boys' room the other night to accommodate two cribs. Moe's new crib should be in tomorrow. Once we get it set up I will post pictures of their new fun hang out!

Poor Moe has been in a portable crib (the same one he was in when he first came. He is finally growing out of the sides! hahaha