Weekend in Review

Saturday:
...I have been having a cry fest this morning and just curling up in the lap of our Father with some serious concerns. I HAD TO take a shower and as I'm in the shower this song popped in my head and I had an overwhelming desire to belt it out (and y'all, that took guts... I don't sing). But as I did all of my heartache that I had been wailing over for the past two days flowed down the drain with uncontrollable sobs. 
"It's all about you, Jesus. And all this is for you for your glory and your fame. It's not about me; as if You should do things my way. You alone are God and I surrender... to your ways."
Maybe I am leaking a LOT more fluid. Maybe my heart is weary with uncertainty but who am I to say it HAS to look this way or that? Who am I to question what God is doing in and through my body? I am human, that's who. And I have to DAILY surrender to HIS ways... NOT my own.

....Ben is so intrigued and excited about his little brother it's not even explainable! 
We were listening to his heartbeat and Ben started trying to talk to Joshua through the speaker of the Doppler!!! Haha THEN he proceeds to look in my belly button with the light trying to see him!!! I was told he could see his hair in my belly button!

Sunday:
....For the past two nights two different children in our home have had dreams of a fire in our house! 
Come Holy Spirit, like a blazing fire and bring the word of The Lord to consume us all! We need you Jesus!!! 
Abba Father! Immanuel! Jehovah Rapha: God who heals! Jehovah Shammah: my God is here!
....I mean if I have to be on bed rest for so long... I am at least very thankful for the view I get each day. 
Blue sparkling water, green grass and lots of horses that pass by! And earlier I was watching a little finch on the tree branches doing flips then a pair of cardinals sitting enjoying the sunshine.

....This has been my favorite song for as long as it's been on the radio. When I hear it, it speaks so loudly... Even more so now! 

http://youtu.be/dy9nwe9_xzw

Prayers on this Friday...

This is a verse and prayer I adapted from another site of a friend we're praying for, this afternoon I have it on my heart form Bri...

"Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story,
those He redeemed from the hand of their foe....
He brought them out of darkness and deepest gloom
and burst their bonds apart....
He sent forth His word and healed them;
He rescued them from the grave....
He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hushed.
They were glad when it grew calm,
and He guided them to their desired haven" (Psalm 107:2, 14, 20, 29-30).
O our Father, thank You for the many testimonies of Your goodness to Your people, and even specifically to Johnny and Bri. Redeem them again from thier enemy and burst the bonds apart. Send forth Your word again and heal her. Still this new storm to a whisper and guide her to the haven at the end of a full term pregnancy, in Jesus' name.

Friday...

Today has been unbelievably hard. There has been a lot more fluid leak than normal. Well, MY normal, anyway. 

No pain and no cramps and no other changes other than the influx in fluid leaking so THANK YOU JESUS for uneventful! 

My heart is weary. "How, God, can I be drinking so much water and see such a backward result in levels?", is my hearts rhythmic wonder. "And now I am losing more!?"

But my God says, "fear not, it's not FOR you to know... But to trust".

Thank you Jesus! Your promises are true and Holy!

"There is no security in what God is doing. There is only security in WHO God is."

- Graham Cooke
(Nature of God)

Let's cheer her on to keep drinking and hold her arms up that the fluid's building and no infection.