What have we been doing

Since Moe's return life has been INTERESTING around these parts :).

Not in a bad way by any means. Well unless you consider him coming home SICK is bad. Oh, right... that is BAD!

I had to take him in to the ER due to our dr. being out of office for a while. It was confirmed that he had Pink eye, Strep, an inner ear infection and Bronchitis. NICE!

We got some antibiotics and have been knocking this stuff outta the park.

I am REALLY sanitizer happy when it comes to sicknesses. When one has gotten it in our household in the past it has stayed to that one person. I wash everyone's hands a LOT and sanitize on top of that. NOBODY touches anyone and they all stay in respective spots until said sickness is over... ( more or less, minus trips to the bathroom and kitchen table. Then it is sanitize and wash all over again).

But this time... oh yes, this time. I was doing GREAT to keep the boys from being too close to one another. I was clorox wiping toys and Moe was only allowed ONE toy for a limited time until it was time to "switch" so I could clean the one he had and give him something else. All that work and I look up and see Bear holding Moe's sippie he'd gotten off the counter!!! I cannot tell you how badly I was ready and willing to clorox swab the inside of his mouth at that point!

At that point I knew it was inevitable. Bear was going to get what Moe had. AND HE HAS! Yesterday afternoon he woke with a fever. Just the tip of the iceberg people! Just the tip.
Today he has a pink eye and a very hoarse throat (not to mention VERY SORE), a terrible runny nose and an AWFUL cough!

To the ER we go! I walk in and write my own prescription seeing I already KNOW what it is! (Okay so I didn't write my own of course and I still had to wait 3 hours to walk back out with a prescription for the same meds Moe is taking). NOT.A.HAPPY.MOMMY!

I know it is none of my children that can help what is going on. I am just mad that I have been so careful to not take my children out to places with sick kids or even have BEEN sick. When "sick season" is about I don't go to any public places where my kids can "roam free" or touch things. I wipe everything down with sanitary wipes including their hands and yes even around their mouth (not their lips) and around their nose (where all germs enter). And home comes MOE sick as a dog for lack on his families part to keep him well.

I feel like I have given up my child(ren)'s well being just so that they could be lazy, and it drives me insane. Again I know we are going to get through this and I know that there are worse situations that we could be dealing with but I am frustrated all the same, I am venting! I am glad to have our little boy back no matter... I just hate that he is having to endure this and drag Bear along right behind him.

On to developmental news. :)

This was him the day he came home. We jumped right in the swing of things. Time out was/ is crucial for him. He is VERY strong willed and if you let him have an inch he will be writing you from China! The kid is SMART and KNOWS how to crawl right up under that nerve and WORK IT!

He came home throwing tantrums at the drop of a hat. He can no longer speak words as before he left so he is mad at the fact that we will not give him what he is whining for. We taught him to speak once before and we can do it again.

He and Bear are now playing good together and sharing (ahem... EVERYTHING apparently!). He is starting to sound out words again and he is smiling all the time (our CW said he was so depressed and NEVER smiled anymore. His mother also called me one day worried about him and his "being depressed"). He is happy again! I am thrilled to see such progress in his actions and speaking.

He was potty training when he left our home 4 mos ago and he totally regressed there too. I had to go back to "familiarizing" him with the toilet. Screaming fits and "rebellion". Finally he went. Now he is going like a champ and standing up even to pee pee in the potty. He stopped the other day and grabbed his diaper and looked shocked and made a noise (in place of talking). I asked him "Moe, you need to go potty?" He dropped his toys and ran to the toilet. He has had at most 3 "accidents" (he's still in pull-ups) since being home and "training" again. I am proud of him for trying so hard!


Other than the trying to keep their noses wiped and their meds straight and administered, we are moving right along in the right direction. I love my boys and am happy to be the only girl in the midst of all my guys. ONE day we will welcome our little girl home to stay :)... one day.

Off to tend to a crying Bear. He is VERY sore right now and does not handle sickness well! He gets hit hard when it comes to being sick! I don't like this part!

It's over

I can't take it anymore...

I am in LOVE.

And I think he is about the cutest thing in a hat!

I ventured out to make him a TINY hat that would fit him and be WAY stinkin' cute.

I did it!Hmmm a BIT small...

So I did it again, only bigger.
There Now they match!

Today

Okay so for those of you who follow me on Facebook you knew I had court this morning. Originally I went for Roo BUT it "just so happens" that Moe's case was reviewed before the court today also.

I have had some insight on what has been happening in his case and it has NOT been good! I knew that. I knew CPS has not been happy with his current conditions. I knew that they were wanting him to come back to us. I did. I just didn't know that it would happen today!

First of all Roo's case was very short and the mother is wanting to work plans to get him back... they usually always start out that way. She was all alone, no attorney, no friend, no hand to hold. Just her. It broke my heart. I looked at her at such a young age and thought that so could have been me back at that age. ALONE, Lost! I cried. (Ol' soft heart syndrome!). She just needs someone to take her by the hand and tell her she is loved, she has value and that she has a savior crying out for her heart! JESUS, captivate her heart! There are no visitations in play so I am unsure of what that means.

Then came Moe's case! Boy Howdy that was a different story all together! It lasted about 3 hours of back and forth this and that... UGH. EXCRUCIATING! Especially having to listen to them explain the things that Moe has been through since he left our home and how he has regressed so much.

When they were talking about him no longer talking I didn't think they were 100% truthful. And when they said he was distant and depressed I was like hmmm, maybe he is just being his bashful self.

Not in the least.

Today Moe was returned to our home.

He cannot talk. He looks straight through you... he's lost in his own little world.

I cry.

Where is my happy little Moe Baby and why is there no way I can save him from this corrupt system.

CPS wants him to be adopted by us but the judge may not see that necessary if the mom can now step it up and make a way for him.

I hate that he has to be put through so much at such a young age. YES children are resilient but they are also VERY FRAGILE... Handle with care!

This has been some of the most careless acts imposed upon his little self. I was for the dad having a chance to prove himself a fit father but when it started going downhill they should have stopped it then. NOT 4 months later!

We welcomed him back into our home and saw Bear interact with his little self. Moe was being stand off-ish and then Bear came right up to him on my lap and started laughing this ridiculous little goofy laugh and Moe cracked up laughing and they sat there for 5 minutes laughing at eachother... an overwhelming JOYFUL laugh... at NOTHING. The pure innocence of childhood that he should ALWAYS know in our home.

Tonight I sat with him, prayed with him and just held him. He was tough. He put up a fight. He then surrendered and smiled at me and dropped one part of that wall.

Our Moe Baby has been returned as a damaged package but with lots of delicate placement and all the right pieces we can get him back. I love him no matter how he comes. It will be some hard work but to see him being well taken care of ... I will take that hard work over none.

ANY DAY!