It's said and it's almost done!

I can say that I have experienced the peace of God many times. I have had trials and I have had miracles all in which the presence of God was HEAVY...

I called Daddy F today before the hearing and told him that I wanted to pray with him about this hearing. He GLADLY agreed. I prayed for peace and a wise ruling from the judge. I prayed for the best decision for Moe would be made. I prayed for his mother and her heart as she was going into the hearing more than likely to be told that she would have visits with her son and nothing more.

we get into the hearing and find out we had a different judge. I have personally never HAD this judge but Bear did and he was the one who did all of hearings (even if we were unable to attend most of them ... OR stay through all of them!) but we like this judge all the same. The new judge I have no clue about him really.

First up on the witness stand was our CPS CW. She was being grilled from one flame to the next from Mom's attorney and from Ad litem (Moe's attorney, for those of you not familiar with all this). As she was sitting there Moe's dad kept being the target of their questioning. They were asking her with his pas how she thought that he'd be a good place for Moe to live. They pulled the rug out from under CPS and then shook the dirt from it all over them. It was not looking good anymore in my amateur opinion.

Then the mother gets up there in the witness stand and the flame throwers take their positions yet again. She was roasted before she sat down it seemed. I am sad to say the accusations against here were nowhere near as bad as the ones they had against the father. All I came away with was that her inconsistency was what was getting her into "trouble", in not being able to get him placed with her.

I do not have as close a relationship with the mother as we do with Daddy F, more from her choices and where she lives than we choose not to. But my heart breaks for her! Truly it does. I watched her get up there and I watched them tear away at her bit by bit. She was left hiding behind nothing more than her helpless tears.

Then for the miracle to start taking place. Daddy F was so nervous and SICK! He was pale and just kind of a bowl of jello so it seemed! At our short recess before the last stretch he was just so nervous about it all and from being grilled via the CW during the first part of the hearing he was so scared as to what he could say that would change the judge's mind about him.

He gets up on the stand and maybe 5 questions overall were asked of him!!! FIVE! Most of which were from HIS attorney! They nowhere near grilled him the way they had through the CW earlier. It was pretty UNREAL!!!

Finally the ruling ... Daddy F gets Moe for now and the mother gets every other weekend unsup visits! 6 mos CPS overseeing it... then it is DONE! Moe will be leaving our home tomorrow!

I can say I have felt the presence of GOD this day and so has Moe's family! Thank you Jesus!

Thank you all for your prayers, love, support and well wishing! We have been blessed! TREMENDOUSLY!

Today is the day

I am asking for all who know us that KNOW and UNDERSTAND the power of prayer that you would stand on our behalf today.

Today in just 1.5 hours I will stand in a court room and hear the words that will break my heart in so many ways. We will be losing "our" precious son, but this son will be reunited with his father whom loves him dearly. A (bio) mother will have to accept that her son is not coming home to her, but at this time in both their lives it is in the best interest for both of them that he does not.

As I was making lunch for Bear today (Moe is at a visit with his mother) the phone rang and it was Moe's ad litem (his attorney). She was asking me what I though about what was happening. This is the first time I have EVER spoken with this lady! NOT the time to call and ask THAT question when he is about to leave me for good!

I told her that I believed in the father was very capable and that we are a huge support system for him. She said she had doubts b.c of his past but since talking to me she felt more confident in the matter! Hmmmm is that okay? I sure hope she goes off her own instincts and not JUST what I say!

So in a few minutes I will be leaving and then I will be back to fill you in on details!

PLEASE if you feel led :) PRAY for our family and his! J had to work today... no way around it so it will be me with our caseworkers!

The time is near

I can hardly breathe for I know I have limited time left with my little Moe Baby. I can barely stand to think that after Tuesday he will soon be going home with his father for good and I will be "left in the dust" of their quick moving trail.

We are not sure what will happen after the final hearing on Tuesday. If anyone knows how this part goes... please fill me in! My caseworker has only been doing this for 15 months and this is her first case to be returning home so she is kind of in the dark as well. We are all excited that his father has come so far and has proven to LOVE his son unconditionally and in that he will be getting him back; BUT it is still very bittersweet!

As far as I know we will see him again. I have been a part of helping his father get everything together. He has told me that we will always be part of Moe's life. But it is not over 'til it is over. I have heard sad stories way too many times where the foster parents were a big part of the parents getting the kids back but then the communication breaks when the child is back "home".

It breaks my heart to think that I could never see him again.

Almost 2 weeks ago for about a 2 week stretch I was ready to ship both the boys off to a third world country! They are synchronized teethers and I was getting a lethal serving of C.R.A.B.A.P.P.L.E PIE! It was undesirable to say the least!

Now it is over and the smoke has settled and so have the crumbs from the pie. Both boys are back to their sweet selves again (with intermittent crumbs) and it is killing me to have to say goodbye to my precious boy. Ask me two weeks ago and I probably would have paid someone to take them both (but only for a day or two)!

I know he is going to fulfill God's intended purpose for his life. I have prayed it and continue to pray it still. I know there are others who also pray for him and his family and wherever he ends up. I don't want to be jealous or even selfish but my heart can only wish that he would grow up here and we would be able to watch him grow and help him become the man God has called him to be.

I pray he would be given wings to SOAR above the world and all it's destruction. God protect him from the unknown. Guide him in the direction of righteousness. Bless him and his family in all that they do Father! Watch over our Moe Baby and his family Lord! Watch over them...