Today is the day

I am asking for all who know us that KNOW and UNDERSTAND the power of prayer that you would stand on our behalf today.

Today in just 1.5 hours I will stand in a court room and hear the words that will break my heart in so many ways. We will be losing "our" precious son, but this son will be reunited with his father whom loves him dearly. A (bio) mother will have to accept that her son is not coming home to her, but at this time in both their lives it is in the best interest for both of them that he does not.

As I was making lunch for Bear today (Moe is at a visit with his mother) the phone rang and it was Moe's ad litem (his attorney). She was asking me what I though about what was happening. This is the first time I have EVER spoken with this lady! NOT the time to call and ask THAT question when he is about to leave me for good!

I told her that I believed in the father was very capable and that we are a huge support system for him. She said she had doubts b.c of his past but since talking to me she felt more confident in the matter! Hmmmm is that okay? I sure hope she goes off her own instincts and not JUST what I say!

So in a few minutes I will be leaving and then I will be back to fill you in on details!

PLEASE if you feel led :) PRAY for our family and his! J had to work today... no way around it so it will be me with our caseworkers!

The time is near

I can hardly breathe for I know I have limited time left with my little Moe Baby. I can barely stand to think that after Tuesday he will soon be going home with his father for good and I will be "left in the dust" of their quick moving trail.

We are not sure what will happen after the final hearing on Tuesday. If anyone knows how this part goes... please fill me in! My caseworker has only been doing this for 15 months and this is her first case to be returning home so she is kind of in the dark as well. We are all excited that his father has come so far and has proven to LOVE his son unconditionally and in that he will be getting him back; BUT it is still very bittersweet!

As far as I know we will see him again. I have been a part of helping his father get everything together. He has told me that we will always be part of Moe's life. But it is not over 'til it is over. I have heard sad stories way too many times where the foster parents were a big part of the parents getting the kids back but then the communication breaks when the child is back "home".

It breaks my heart to think that I could never see him again.

Almost 2 weeks ago for about a 2 week stretch I was ready to ship both the boys off to a third world country! They are synchronized teethers and I was getting a lethal serving of C.R.A.B.A.P.P.L.E PIE! It was undesirable to say the least!

Now it is over and the smoke has settled and so have the crumbs from the pie. Both boys are back to their sweet selves again (with intermittent crumbs) and it is killing me to have to say goodbye to my precious boy. Ask me two weeks ago and I probably would have paid someone to take them both (but only for a day or two)!

I know he is going to fulfill God's intended purpose for his life. I have prayed it and continue to pray it still. I know there are others who also pray for him and his family and wherever he ends up. I don't want to be jealous or even selfish but my heart can only wish that he would grow up here and we would be able to watch him grow and help him become the man God has called him to be.

I pray he would be given wings to SOAR above the world and all it's destruction. God protect him from the unknown. Guide him in the direction of righteousness. Bless him and his family in all that they do Father! Watch over our Moe Baby and his family Lord! Watch over them...

"Birth Blankets"

Okay so I got to thinking one day... "what good is a birth pillow really?"

I mean you get a little pillow and put some info on it about the birth day but what then. They never really use it and it usually just gets stored (or tossed).

So I came up with a more useful idea, something that would be able to be used AND display all the fun facts. And from that idea was born the "birth blanket"

Here is Bear's birth blanket. I still have the final touches to go as far as the border goes. Just satin trimming. But I am LOVING the blankets.

Moe's colors are more calm and his satin backing is cream. The quilted side is green, blue, cream and light tan (I think).


The quilting fabric can be bought at Hobby Lobby if you do not feel like creating your own quilt (not you Mols :)) and the backing is just satin and I took it to a local "monogramming" shop. Pin faces together and sew leaving a small opening to turn right side out when done sewing. Turn right side out then sew'er up. Then comes the satin blanket trim. I will be doing that soon... so ask me later if you need to know how that is done.

The boys LOVE them (ignore the pouty face!). And the blankets are big enough that they cover the boys!