set back

There I was counting down the seconds for the Adoptions worker to get here with the case file for me to read. I get a call at 9:45 stating that she had been in a fender bender and would not be able to bring the file out but that her secretary would bring it around 4PM! Just to clarify she is okay and I was concerned that she was in a wreck. on the other hand (you know since she's okay and all, if not that would be way inconsiderate but....) Ugghhhh more waiting. Instead, I told her I would be there at 4 for a visit with Moe's father this afternoon. I would pick it up then.

Hmmmm what's up with this case file? Is there something in it I am being guarded from? I will be in prayer throughout the day!

So for now I am rearranging my home for the 115th time since we moved in October of 07. I just rearranged the boys' room the other night to accommodate two cribs. Moe's new crib should be in tomorrow. Once we get it set up I will post pictures of their new fun hang out!

Poor Moe has been in a portable crib (the same one he was in when he first came. He is finally growing out of the sides! hahaha

Feburary...

We had a visit this morning with our adoptions worker. She said that all that is left is for our homestudy to be updated on the 5th and then they will write up a small addition to our summary and then it should be finalized somewhere in Feburary!!! WOW!!!

Can you believe it! I am getting so excited. I had a brief realization earlier this evening. 3 years ago on Feb 11th our son Samuel David was born and passed away. It is so amazing at the restoration God brings! It would be truly something for the adoption to actually be consummated on the 11th. The 11th is on a Wednesday and court usually takes place on a Tuesday. Oh well it is close enough and I am not sure it will even happen that soon in the month! Fact is though it will indeed happen in Feburary!

So there is a ream (stack about 4 in thick) of paper that they leave with you for you to read and learn more about your child's family and life prior to you before you finalize the adoption; you know in case you decide to change your mind after having read the ins and outs of their life. But seeing how we've had him straight from the hospital at 7 days old then I think we pretty much know all there is to know about the little mini godzilla!

That being said... I was really looking forward to getting the huge novel of paper to read up on the life of Bear before he was brought to us (yes all 7 days of it). It is just so much that is missed out on when you adopt as opposed to having your own children. Like I still have no clue as to how much he weighed at birth and how long he was. Was he a c-sec baby or what. Was he at term... you know those things... was his mother an axe murderer... just all the normal things an adoptive parent needs/wants to know about her baby prior to their life with you!

So when our adoption worker was here today she left the awaited ream of my precious son's life there on our couch to look over and sign. As she left I was in the middle of strapping on the ol' feed bags to our boys so they could have more energy for the day! When they were finally finished I put them in their play room to exhert said energy and let mommy have a little walk down memory...er. prior-to-us lane. Low and Behold I grab the novel into my hands and look at the cover that says "CONFIDENTIAL BY LAW" and a whole bunch of other important documentish looking words right there next to the words..."this is not Bear's file" (in other words there were names on the document that were not the names of children in our home)... OOOPS! Wrong case study! Ha! SOOO I call the office to leave a message for our case worker. When she later returns my call I told her that I thought the stack looked thick for a 7 day old baby... she told me "His is actually thicker"... oh geez, she is an axe murderer and so is the family! THAT IS A JOKE BY THE WAY! I AM MAKING NO CLAIMS TO KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT THE FAMILY OF BEAR! I KNOW NOTHING, SEE NOTHING, AND DEFINITELY DIDN'T SMELL ANYTHING!

So tomorrow she is going to bring the "Bear" file out for us. In the meantime I played hokey pokey and the chase the babies around the bed game to kill time (no pun intended there, and I didn't do it with an axe, nor was it in the observatory) until nap time to do the 15 other chores screaming at me from under the... you name it in my house.

See you when I come out of hidin... reading!

What do you do when...

You are asked if you want to adopt an unborn baby??? SSSCREAM AND PEE YOUR PANTS! Well that's what I would do. (okay no I didn't but WOW!!!)

A long-time friend of mine called me tonight and asked me a couple of odd questions about our Agency allowing another baby to be adopted into our home. Hmmm "well it is more detailed than just permission".

C: "What would your agency do if you were presented with someone who wanted you to adopt their baby?"

Me: "Well the only thing is that Bear has to be 18 months old first (there is a limit of no more than 2 babies under the age of 18 mos.) He is now almost 15 months old so we have 3 more months... Why, how old is said baby?"

C: "It's not even born yet, but the mother knows she cannot raise another baby and called me to see if we would want to adopt it but we cannot. I told her about you and she told me to ask you if you would do it."

Me: I can almost here some kind of sad music in the background because this is just not the random phone call in the evening kind of day. Good things tend to take some kind of toll first on me. Then after I am all beaten up and limping I can have the ice cream. In other words nothing good seems to happen without some kind of STIPULATION in my experiences. So all that said I am still very skeptical that this would happen for us.

Me: " We would love to do it if she is serious. I will have to make some calls to our attorney to see what all needs to happen but other than that I would ask that you keep in contact with her and let me know what all is going on and I will need an address so as to send some paperwork for her to fill out and such if she is indeed prepared to go through with this."

C: "She is prepared. Her situation does not allow for another child to raise. She wants it to stay in a somewhat "circle" of friends so that she can keep in some form of contact (open adoption) and all. I told her you would probably be interested in that."

Me:"Well I will get all the information and mail it to her and let you know what is going on so to stay updated on what all is going on"

Is this really happening? Again it is too far in the future to tell for sure. Apparently the mother is only approximately 2 months along and that would make her due in August... My B.day is in August... That would be SWEET!... But I am taking everything in stride because I am not sure what is going to happen. I mean I know of way too many situations where the BM sees the baby and cannot go through with it so then the Adoptive family is left hurting and empty nested. We will of course still have Bear and hopefully Moe but that would stink nonetheless! I will keep you all updated on what is going on with this situation. I am asking for your prayer and heart felt encouragement if you have any to share.

On another note... if this said baby does enter into our home, pray that God would indeed bless us with a different vehicle to transport our brood! Our Camry is packed out with two toddler car seats in the back. Sad right! Let's not even talk about the jeep (if we ever needed to get into that with all children.) Who knows what will even happen with Moe by that time. I am hoping for an adoptive future with him also but he has a lot of family that may come forward to adopt him first. Again, who but God knows our future... so in HIM I will rest my trust and lean not on my own understanding (Not even the understanding of how to fit 3 carseats in the back of a Toyota Camry; very carefully and snugly!!!)!