Not much else has gone on since Moe has left us. It has been going great. We still miss him and love him dearly but God is good in the way that he holds us up when we are too weak. I LOVE HIM!!! WE have heard that he is doing great so that is encouraging.
We are getting some good quality time in with Bear. He is learning all sorts of new things. He now will point to an eye and say "eye" (he's starting to move on to "nose" and "mouth" with pointing, he signs... please, all-done, and "more". He can tell you what a horse says. He is now experimenting with his foods... used to he would eat and that was that. He is a fairly clean eater ( I guess I had a lot to do with that... I hate unnecessary messes). Here recently he has been putting food in his mouth and then pulling it back out to look at it and then put it back in... hmmmm nice. I don't understand but I am sure this has something to do with his learning and exploring what is going on with his food. We let him do this to a point and then we make him eat his food. He is doing great at obeying, I can tell him to stop something and he will do it. I can ask him to give me whatever he has and he will hand it over (sometimes there has to be a little prompting but in the end he will relinquish). If he is going into the other room and he is supposed to be in a certain area I can tell him "come back in here please" and he will look at me and come crawling quickly with a huge grin. He has not learned however to clean his room after alone play time... Ü... we are learning though. It is fun teaching him and watching everything just fall into place. I love being his mother.
I found out yesterday that my brother in law and his wife are expecting their second child. hmmmmm I cannot tell you much about that b/c I feel like the Devil will just step in and take control of my tongue. I want to be excited for them and so I will choose silence as my weapon against the enemy.... HA! take that!
Their daughter was born on Oct 18 2007 and that was hard for me... I had just delivered and buried our third child and second little girl around Christmas of 06. So it was real tough to swallow that they were now a happy family with their very own new little baby girl. but I felt like everyone looked at me as though I was the bad guy... like I was being selfish because I didn't come around much and didn't have much to say when I was around "them"... What did they want really... I guess maybe they will never understand what it is like. Hopefully they will never have to experience what I have been through and what I go through every time I hear of a new mother giving birth or see a family having just had their own baby. But then again they will also not know what it is like to meet a newborn baby and know nothing about him/her but be their everything from that moment on and then have to raise them for someone else with unconditional love. That alone will allow you to see the face of God daily.
I enjoy what I do but I am still human and this news still hurts to the core. BUT: I will choose to put on a happy face and drink kindness by the cup full.
Where God was in my pain.... On October 18 2007.... Bear also was being born just 45 minutes before my new niece. (Amazing right!!!) One week later he would be coming home to us. We learned of him on the 24th and got him on the 25th. I am in pain now of the new news but I do know that God is bigger than this too. He will prove faithful to HIS daughter yet again. He will uphold me in this time. I was thinking earlier... "my sister is going to be having another baby and now My in-laws are pregnant again... hmmmm something big must be coming our way!" I have no idea where to place all my feelings but to take them to the foot of the cross and I have to choose to speak with a mellow tongue and kind spirit otherwise the enemy will come right in and steal my joy. So all that to say I am living in the Spirit right now by faith that HE will help me see joy and not sadness. HE is always so faithful when we give Him our all...
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